Reincarnated Japanese Samurai Resolves Suicidal Thoughts

Reincarnated Japanese Samurai Resolves Suicidal Thoughts: "Life's Not Worth Living If I'm Not Perfect"

The following case study reveals a

woman’s perfection obsession and physical/emotional problems as influenced by past-life, Samurai warrior codes. It includes actual Past Life Therapy (PLT) session dialogue with commentary by Rigo de La Cruz, as he explains the PLT process and its effectiveness.

Case Study

A young, married woman I will call Kim pursues Past Life Therapy because her obsession with perfection and sacrifice is preventing her from moving forward and enjoying life. 

Furthermore, she has been considering suicide. She agreed to have this anonymous case study distributed for educational purposes. Some details/PLT methods of her sessions are abbreviated for newsletter purposes.

Kim’s past-life experience as a Samurai warrior will reveal the source of her digestive problems and suicidal thoughts. This article aims to demonstrate how an unresolved trauma involving a self-inflicted, fatal sword-wound to the abdomen is contributing to her belief “Life’s not worth living if I’m not perfect.” It will connect her past-life suicide, or SeppukuSamurai code, to her self-esteem issues, headaches, abortion, multiple plastic surgeries, and suicidal tendencies. It will show how a continual, life-threatening code of perfection, honor and unwavering sacrifice is carried over via cellular/soul memory as an unconscious program or belief system creating unnecessary suffering.

Since I live and work mostly in Mexico City, but travel to NYC for clients, Kim decided to wait until my next NYC trip instead of flying to LA, which her sessions later reveal reinforces “sacrifice.” She scheduled a few dates for multiple, daily intensive sessions. Kim said she had high expectations for this therapy process as she researched several modalities and various therapists before deciding on myself.

Kim arrived for her first appointment impeccably and fashionably dressed. She is very attractive and 26 years of age. She seemed obviously nervous though calmed considerably once she sat and we began talking. During Kim’s initial intake interview, she expressed how her obsession with perfection makes her cautious when starting new projects, including therapy. Committing to a new venture or project is a highly calculated task for she knows what she will put herself through and have to sacrifice to ensure a “perfect outcome.” After further questioning, Kim reports feelings of sadness, a general lack of interest, abdominal discomfort, internet/computer game addictions, and suicidal thoughts. The following summarizes some reasons for her current condition.

Kim’s quest for perfection originates in past-life experiences, or unconscious programming, and is reinforced during pre-natal/birth experiences, surgeries, and her parental/cultural upbringing. She will create consciousness in PLT sessions as the mind reveals and resolves the source of her unresolved traumas, confusion, and “brainwashing.” Kim will discover the logic in why she unconsciously attracted parents who match her past-life script of unattainable perfection and expectations.

She claims her father is seldom satisfied and an overachiever who “must be doing something at all times.” She reports, “He can’t sit still.” From my PLT clinical experience, I know this usually indicates a survival-based, unconscious belief meaning, “If I sit still, I may have to really think about and deal with my past,” or “as long as I’m moving (on this past-life battlefield), I’m not dead.” Her mother, much like her father, is emotionally unavailable and PLT sessions involving Kim’s conception disclose an unconscious agreement of “I’ll let you be born if you’re perfect, successful, and if you become somebody.” This unconscious contract or conditional agreement was the “perfect match” for Kim’s unresolved, survival-based scripts from past-lives.

Kim further reports feeling stuck, disconnected from others, and says she has fears about this type of therapy stating, “I worry I will feel the pain of what may have happened to me in a past-life.” I admit to her that PLT takes courage and can sometimes be emotionally and physically taxing, however, it’s certainly bearable. Any pain and suffering she is experiencing in her current-life is often a result of preexisting, unresolved traumas/events. In other words, the pain or discomfort is materializing in the form of behavioral and physical problems. PLT aims to access the source of her discomfort and emotional issues already present; it does not create new problems. Its goal is to finally resolve the underlying issues rather than avoid or mask them with various coping mechanisms, which are evident from Kim’s self-proclaimed addictions. Although not a drug user, her “non-drug” of choice for numbing and escaping is computer/video games, shopping, and obsessing over her appearance or current projects until “almost perfect.”

Below are actual excerpts and summaries from Kim’s PLT sessions. The full transcript and PLT methods are sometimes abbreviated or eliminated for discussion purposes and conciseness. Kim’s in a reclined position with her eyes closed. She will be instructed to allow her unconscious mind to re-experience and complete the unfinished business of the past. Thus, release the conditioning or mind-controlling aspects that have directed and commanded her to remain a victim. Kim will enter into a focused-state of de-hypnosis; A self-guided therapeutic process that locates and resolves pre-existing traumatic experiences which have remained in the unconscious mind as unresolved incidents.

TP (Therapist - Rigo de la Cruz): Based on the interview questions I’ve asked, is there anything else that comes to mind particularly unusual about your early childhood or adolescents?

CL (Client): When I was 12, I wanted to kill my grandmother. Because of our Korean tradition, it’s common for grandparents to live with their grown children. She is always bothering my parents, especially my mother who is her daughter-in-law. Grandma always complains and compares us to others. She is never satisfied. Nothing is perfect or good-enough according to her and if I get angry and speak up, she threatens to leave, which upsets my Dad. My mother is afraid of Grandma. She constantly stresses and upsets my Mom with her comments and demands.

I moved to NYC to get away from my grandmother and Korean traditions though I soon realized NYC isn’t perfect and people bother me here; they whistle at me in the street, ask personal questions, dress and behave too informally, etc. Growing up I was a very good student and I’ve always considered myself a perfectionist though I know “I’m not perfect.” I usually received the highest test scores, however, I became rebellious when my parents became controlling and I’d do things like shave my head to freak them out. My parents have always expected me to go to an Ivy League college and “be somebody.” When my parents pressure me, I go the other way.

I failed the SAT’s [purposely] and my Dad sent me to Europe where I received a management degree which requires a great deal of human interaction. Strangely, I don’t like working with people very much. I don’t want to be bothered. I don’t want to get to know people, for fear I will disappoint them [they may discover I’m not perfect]. [Hence], I’ve often thought of moving to Japan where nobody bothers you or gets in your business [less intimate; a place to hide with an illusion of perfectionism]. I haven’t found a job I want since finishing college and moving to NYC. I don’t feel motivated to go out and look for a job, though I want one. I don’t go out much. I don’t want to go outside.

TP: Say “I don’t want to go outside” again and the very next words that come to mind. Do not analyze what you are recalling; say whatever surfaces. Do not just observe the scenes that unfold, rather participate in them being fully aware of what happens next. Always speak in the first person when someone is directly or indirectly communicating to you or to someone near you. This will help ground you in the experience and allow the reality of the experience to intensify in order for you to know and feel what you are here to resolve. In addition, interpret any non-verbal energy and behaviors into meaningful words and intentions.

CL: I don’t want to go outside, though part of me wants to go outside. I can’t go outside. If I go outside, I will be humiliated and killed.

TP: Do you feel stuck? [Kim reported feeling stuck earlier in the intake interview.]

CL: Yes. I feel stuck and confused.

TP: Let’s connect this “stuck and confused” feeling to your present-life birth. Then I will have you connect this familiar predicament to its past-life source. Birth usually re-creates this feeling for those who felt stuck at the time of their death. Therefore, let’s locate and resolve feeling stuck at your pre-natal/birth, which will allow you to easily process your sessions. Give me the first words coming from mother, doctor or caregiver? Note: This birth section is summarized with some additional commentary explaining/summarizing the PLT process.

CL: “Why don’t you try harder?” (Doctor is speaking reinforcing “you will never be perfect; try harder.”)

“Keep trying.”

I’m stuck in mother. I’m half way out. My legs are out. I don’t want to go out…I’m stuck (breach birth reinforces stuck and helplessness).

TP: Be very aware of everything the doctor says or does to get you unstuck? (Forceps can puncture the eye or reinforce dyslexia when doctor says “that’s right” as he/she turns the baby left, etc.)

CL: “Just keep trying,” the doctor says as he turns me around. I’m thinking, life’s a struggle and I don’t want to be born.

TP: The doctor’s words are reinforcing this belief that life will always be a struggle. What are you aware of next?

CL: “She’s very small and ugly. Not a good child to make her mother suffer.” (Nurse is speaking.)

TP: These unconscious statements reinforce low self-esteem, pressure to have plastic surgeries, and feelings you aren’t good enough/perfect. Also, that you are responsible for your parents’ suffering. The prenatal period and moments during and shortly after birth are when you’re most vulnerable to actions and statements. This is especially the case while connected to mother by the umbilical cord. You haven’t had a chance to develop consciousness separate from mother until the cord is cut. Everything said or done is absorbed during birth/surgery/trauma, i.e., unconscious recordings from these events become beliefs and behavioral patterns.

CL: I see bright light and it’s cold. I don’t want to be here. I feel unsafe, scared, and pressure to be somebody. I feel more comfortable inside where there are no headaches. It’s safer inside… where no one bothers me. I feel safer being stuck!

TP: Realize how this admission is evident in your behaviors as an adult. We will address the past-life source reinforcing the belief that going outside will cause headaches and is unsafe [If I go outside, I will die is the likely unconscious, survival-based script]. Later, I will have you re-experience your birth as it should have happened as a type of re-birthing with mother fully present [without drugs entering her body and yours] minus the medical staff’s cold forceps and confusing comments/commands. This process will cause you to recognize someone doesn’t need to rescue you, get you unstuck, and finish things for you. You will work together with mother as a team as she breathes and contracts while easily moving you through the birth canal. Pain is temporary. You will notice how drugs/mind-numbing obsessions and crisis are not necessary for avoiding or getting out of challenging circumstances that have been a pattern since your breach birth.

First, let’s elaborate upon “I feel pressure to be somebody.” At the moment of conception, there was an unconscious agreement or contract you made with mother [and father] to get you born. Finish this sentence speaking as if mother, for her unconscious thoughts and fears become yours during this pre-natal period; “I’ll let you be born if…”

CL: I’ll let you be born if you’re perfect. I will let you be born if you become a great, successful person. You have to be somebody.

TP: Notice how mother’s approval is dependent on you being somebody. You are nobody in her eyes until you become somebody perfect. In other words, “you’re imperfect” and perfection is something you must attain. Now let’s see if your scripts match. Speak your unconscious acceptant of the contract; “I’ll agree to be born if…”

CL: I’ll agree to be born if I can be somebody…somebody great; but I failed. I’m nobody.

TP: You have not been born yet and already feel you have failed. This is stemming from a past-life failure to be revealed later. What does being nobody feel like?

CL: It’s terrible. It’s not worth living if I’m nobody…if I’m not perfect. It stresses me to try and be somebody. My stomach is often upset. I have digestion problems.

TP: Be aware of the toll this is taking on your mind/body.

CL: I know. My father expects me to be somebody too. They pressure me.

TP: Is this pressure being held in your stomach?

CL: Yes, it’s making me sick. (Kim is holding her stomach recognizing how her parents’ expectations are held in her abdomen. Also, digestive issues are likely reinforced during emotionally charged events from prenatal when mother is holding her true, unexpressed feelings inside. We will connect this to Kim’s birth later.)

TP: Kim, I asked earlier in the intake interview about the abortion you had as a teenager. You had mentioned it wasn’t an issue to address. I’m not here to judge your decision about having an abortion. However, I know from experience that women who have abortions or babies who were born breach or C-section often have difficulty finishing things, including scenes that surface in therapy. It’s as if clients are waiting for the doctor or therapist to finish it or fix it for them. PLT is about enabling you to help yourself and regaining control by reframing in your mind how things should have occurred.

Incidentally, you mentioned earlier it’s often taboo in Korean culture to discuss sexual issues or premarital pregnancy. We should discuss the abortion especially since you were unconscious during it. Anything a doctor or nurse says while you are unconscious is recorded and can become commands affecting your behaviors, motivations, and well-being. Connect the sick feeling in your stomach to the first thoughts coming from your stomach, for example, when you realize you are pregnant or your first morning sickness.

CL: My parents will not forgive me. I will shame my family. I’m scared. My boyfriend is thinking, “It’s your fault, not mine.”

TP: Next thoughts that come to mind.

CL: I don’t want his baby because I’m not allowed.

TP: Would you be able to “be somebody” if you had this baby?

CL: No. I would be stuck (reinforcing the “I’m stuck” belief that is already present prior to the pregnancy). I am expected to be somebody.

TP: Be at the clinic waiting for the abortion to begin. Say the next words coming from your stomach.

CL: I feel guilty because I don’t have any right to kill a life.

(Kim reports nurse has given drugs intravenously to induce unconsciousness.)

TP: Be aware of everything a doctor or nurse says during the procedure and speak their words.

CL: “These girls are shameful. I don’t even know if they feel guilty.” (Doctor speaks.)

TP: Realize how the doctor is implying you should “feel guilty” about this procedure. The doctor’s comments are further reinforcing the shame your parents’ feels having a 19-year-old, unmarried, pregnant daughter. We will connect this pattern reinforcing “feel ashamed” to a past-life experience, but for now let’s resolve these judgments coming from the medical staff and your parents and/or grandmother. (The client processes the remaining comments during the abortion and is encouraged to finish this emotionally charged event by talking with the unborn child for closure.) What do you want to communicate to your child?

CL: I can’t have you now. I’m sorry. It’s not the time. It would be better for you to be born another time. I’m not in a good situation.

TP: Connect these thoughts to your mother’s feelings when she was pregnant. You inherited her beliefs and thoughts during the prenatal period which you need to separate. Did mother at any time consider an abortion? Answer yes or no. Trust the first response that comes to mind.

CL: Yes.

TP: Speak the words mother is thinking to herself or saying to someone.

CL: “If I have this baby, I will be stuck. I will be stuck with his mother (Kim’s live-in grandmother). I’m afraid of his mother. She wants to control everything and belittles us [not good enough/perfect]. I can’t divorce my husband and if I have this baby I’m really stuck.”

TP: Realize these are mother’s beliefs that she will be stuck forever.

CL: My mother feels she doesn’t have a choice. Divorce and abortions aren’t an option in my culture.

TP: How are mother’s beliefs being repeated?

CL: I also feel stuck in my relationship with my husband. There isn’t a reason to be stuck, but I feel it.

TP: This is because it was reinforced during unconscious periods of prenatal, birth, and abortion. These events will connect to similar past-life experiences unconsciously recreated until feelings of shame and being stuck are resolved. Notice the mixed messages and confusion created by your parents, boyfriend and doctor. It’s shameful that you are unmarried and pregnant; therefore, an abortion is implicitly encouraged. Boyfriend says, “It’s your fault [problem]; [It’s] not mine.” And, your doctor expresses his unresolved issues about aborting children while passing his shame and confusion onto you. Is there anything else about having a child that is unresolved?

CL: This makes sense. I’ve been confused.

TP: Yes. That is why you’re in therapy. And by clearing confusion you can know the truth. What else do you need to admit about the abortion, both to yourself and your unborn child? Allow yourself to obtain closure with this experience.

CL: I feel ashamed to kill a life, but I can’t help it.

TP: Talk to your baby directly as if here right now. Finish this.

CL: I’m sorry. I can’t have you. It’s not the time. I’m stopping this [birth] from happening because it would be better if you weren’t born now. I’m not in a good situation. If I have you, I’ll be stuck.

TP: You will release this stuck feeling when we rebirth you soon and without the influence of your mother’s trapped feelings. What else do you need to know or admit to feel finished with this experience?

CL: I don’t know if I want children. I feel pressured to have them. If I have a baby, it has to be perfect. If they are not pretty and perfect, I will not want them. I would want them to be a Hollywood star [be somebody].

TP: This is okay to admit. Realize how you would be repeating the pattern: “I’ll let you be born if you’re perfect…if you become a great, successful person. You have to be somebody” (you are nobody until perfection is achieved). Their unconscious motivation will be similar to many Hollywood stars in constant search of approval and recognition.

Note (insecure parents=insecure children): Rather than pursuing an entertainment career based on passion for the arts, it will be based on validation from the media to hint, “See Mom, I’m somebody now; love me.” However, they won’t feel good enough as the unconscious scripts are in place until resolved. Crisis will develop when they aren’t the center of attention, e.g., developing narcissism or compulsive disorders to numb their self-imposed imperfections and lack of genuine attention.

Narcissistic-like behavior may begin with subtle or frequent changes in appearance (hair, clothing, body modifications such as piercing/tattoos, etc.) and becomes more dramatic when it loses its shock value or attention value necessary to “feel alive.” Meanwhile, life-threatening weight issues, excessive plastic surgeries, prescription/ recreational drug abuse, or other risky behaviors can ensue to fuel one’s survival-based, attention addiction. A grandiose, exaggerated form of “self-love” culminates as a false attempt to feel unconditional love their narcissistic counterparts are unable to provide.

TP: The pressure you have to attain perfection is taking its toll. When you resolve your obsession of seeking approval, the painful pressure held in your body will release. You can begin to recognize you are somebody, i.e., a worthy person who is already perfect.

CL: It’s a viscous cycle [passing along the same expectations].

TP: It’s time to end this pattern and finish your birth (rebirthing summarized below) while conscious of this viscous cycle. What would a welcoming birth-environment knowing you are loved and without pressure to achieve perfection feel like? One that isn’t cold, sterile, noisy, and too brightly lit. Furthermore, a complication-free experience without a breach birth crisis and medical staff saying “try harder” or “she’s ugly and not a good child (not good enough).”

CL: I would feel safe, warm, at peace. It would be safe to go out. I would enter the world knowing I’m already somebody.

TP: Yes! Now imagine yourself leaving the birth canal easily and effortlessly with mother fully conscious, drug-free, and breathing you out. At the moment the umbilical cord is cut, release mother’s expectations connecting you at birth. Allow yourself to know her unresolved feelings of being stuck and insecure are no longer yours. And any unresolved issues/commands she is holding in her upset stomach, which are reinforcing your digestive issues, need to release (mother’s words/feelings eliminated in this discussion for brevity). Begin breathing. Breath out the pressures you’ve been holding in your stomach. You can finish things on your terms. Similarly, when speaking to your unborn child during the abortion experience. This will make your past-life sessions process easily as you don’t have to wait for the doctor or therapist to finish them for you. You don’t have to “feel stuck.”

CL: (Client talks to mother then concludes), it feels good to release her expectations. (Kim breathes deeply from her stomach; breathing exercises can be incorporated here.) Part of me is still afraid to be outside.

TP: Let’s connect feelings of “I don’t want to go out” to their past-life source. Unresolved fear is stemming from an unconscious place and birth is the “control center” or “switchboard” that reactivates residual issues. Where in your body do you hold fear?

CL: My stomach [again].

TP: Speak the next words of fear coming from your stomach.

CL: If I go out, I will lose myself. [When I go out], I feel I’m being judged.

(Client experiences a past-life death as a man who died alone in a cave. The cave is the birth canal in her present-life where she was stuck during a breach birth in which someone pulled her out. Her initial reaction at birth was “I don’t want to be here [I don’t want to be outside].” Her mind travels to another past-life with greater details keeping this survival-based pattern in place as evident below.)

I see swords and people being killed. It’s a war. We have to kill others to win. The more people we kill, [shows] we’re the best. It proves our strength. We have to kill many to prove I’m a great general. If we feel guilty [for killing], we lose. It’s a killing game. Everything has to be perfect. I want to win.

TP: How does this relate to your life today?

CL: I do not connect with others. I sometimes have a lack of interest or empathy for others.

TP: If you connect with others, you can’t kill them (unresolved belief from past-life). Also, notice how “a killing game” relates to your addiction to video games that has a similar objective: The more you kill, the higher the score, which proves your skill and assures a win. Continue to talk from your stomach.

CL: My stomach is being stabbed!

TP: Speak the first words that come to mind from the sword.

CL: Kill yourself! (This unconscious command connects to present-life suicidal thoughts.)

TP: Next words. Be very aware of the message coming from the sword/ person holding it.

CL: Keep your honor. You’re no longer the best [not good enough/perfect enough]. I’m Japanese...a general or samurai…and they want me to commit suicide to protect my honor [samurai code known as Seppuku (suicide) or self-disembowelment]. Honor is kept if you kill yourself. Life’s not worth living if I’m not perfect. I can’t believe I’m saying this…I don’t know where I’m coming up with this, but I guess it doesn’t matter.

TP: You don’t have to overanalyze or doubt your thoughts. The unconscious mind may seem irrational at times, for it’s similar to a tape/video recorder objectively playing back experiences.
Note: The purpose of PLT isn’t to prove the existence of past-lives or accuracy of every word spoken. Its aim is to encourage self-awareness and healing. While in a focused, de-hypnotic state, clients unconsciously choose from thousands of words available to communicate their unique path. Their choice of words and experience is valid.

TP: Your unresolved story defines your beliefs and motivations, which will evolve as confusion is cleared and consciousness expands. Trust your first responses as you did when we worked your present-life experiences. Your unconscious is unraveling the past as meaningful words carrying positive and negative energy. They contain an intended message. This energetic dialogue or exchange is held in the body and its brainwashing effects can cause you to remain as a victim and/or victimizer. What are the next thoughts that come to mind?

CL: If I go outside, I will be humiliated.


TP: Again.

CL: If I go outside, I will be humiliated and killed. I have to kill myself to protect my honor and family name.
TP: See how this “saving face” warrior code is reflective in your present-life suicidal thoughts. You stated during the intake interview, “people bother me and I feel they want something from me or are judging me. [For example], making humiliating comments or [inappropriately] whistling when I walk by.” As a result, you avoid going out or getting a job that involves interacting with others. Your present-life counterparts are “inadvertently” resonating with your unresolved, past-life voices of “kill yourself to honor us,” i.e., you’re humiliating and “no longer the best [perfect].”


TP: What happens next?

CL: I kill myself with the sword. It’s very painful, but it keeps my honor. I’m bleeding to death.

TP: Notice how this establishes an honorable life as painful. If there is anyone around you at death, realize what they are saying as it continues to program the mind and perpetuates trauma for the next life.

CL: Finally, he’s gone.

TP: When your soul completely leaves your body, look down, and tell me what you notice/ realize about this lifetime.

CL: I see lots of blood. I died in a beautiful way. I died in an honorable way [rather than dying from the enemies’ swords]. I lived and died perfecting the sword [trying to perfect myself]. I did this by sacrificing my life for honor and my family name. I can see beauty in it; I see beauty in the sword and pain that killed me. Even when I was dying, I pursued the beauty.

TP: This conditioning is likely from an earlier training period with a sword. It’s also reinforcing a pursuit of beauty resonating with your plastic surgeon holding a knife/sword containing a similar message: “You’re not perfect. Suffer for the pursuit of beauty and perfection. I will perfect you with my ‘sword.’ It’s honorable.” The truth is you were pressured by your peers and family to kill yourself because you weren’t perfect (in their eyes). You did not win the battle. You’re still unsuccessful by your standards and present-life parents’ expectations. Therefore, once again the unconscious message is “kill yourself.” This mind-control must be resolved. What’s the truth?

CL: They wanted me dead so they could be in power.

TP: Yes. And the enemy was outside, which is why you don’t enjoy going out, being bothered, or getting too close. The enemy was tradition, peers, family, and yourself. Furthermore, the sword is contributing to your present-life digestive problems. Be back in your body and imagine removing the sword, talking back to it, and to those demanding that you kill yourself. You need to get angry and release these messages.

CL: If I remove the pain [sword], there will be shame. I don’t want to let it go. If I do, I will lose my honor. I want my honor [sword/pain] with me. I keep the honor inside. It’s a beautiful sword…can I take it with me?

TP: Realize you just said you want to keep this sword/pain in you. As long as you keep this sword, you are controlled by it and will hold onto this suffering.

(Kim reports she strangely finds herself reluctant to remove the sword even if it could resolve her painful digestive problems and suicidal thoughts. I realize this is coming from a place of deep conditioning, which may be commanding her to never give up one’s sword. Furthermore, she “coincidentally” reveals she collects antique knives in this lifetime.)

TP: Allow yourself to be at the moment you were first given the sword. What does the sword represent and what is someone saying to you? Speak the first words that come to mind.

CL: Sacrifice and pain are beautiful. There is no sacrifice without pain. Sacrifice is the most beautiful thing you can do. Bearing the pain is beautiful.

TP: What else?

CL: If you lose, the honorable way to die is to kill yourself. There can only be one number one.

TP: And what does this imply about perfection.

CL: You must win, or you’re not perfect. You must win and pursue perfection [and beauty] at all costs. Interestingly, I don’t go out in this life if I don’t look perfect. Everything has to be perfect. Also, my surroundings need to be perfect or it reminds me that I’m not either. I’ve often said I want to move to Japan. I don’t relate to my Korean culture where people ask so many personal questions. I came to America/NYC thinking it would be perfect. I want to go where it’s perfect and people don’t bother you.

TP: The illusion of perfection some Japanese exude may be coming from a fear of someone discovering they aren’t perfect. It’s about “saving face” and has been going on for centuries (see Past Lives as a Geisha and Monk/ PLTC Newsletter-Case Study Oct 2006). Do you really think moving to Japan is going to solve your problems?

CL: No. It’s a place to hide.

TP: Yes, and you need to come out of hiding and resolve your past-life programs/Samurai codes keeping you obsessed with perfection.

CL: It’s Japanese craziness. It’s like when the Kamikaze pilots went on suicide missions.

TP: Yes, and there are forms of craziness in all cultures across the globe. You are here to recognize this and create consciousness. As a result, you don’t have to remain victim of a type of insanity where losing means killing yourself to honor failed pursuits of perfection. You are already perfect. Even past mistakes were perfect, for it was what you needed to experience at the time. The purpose of Past Life Therapy is to make you aware of this: to resolve the past (clear confusion), to feel better, and to move forward. Now that you recognize the craziness in this particular past-life, revisit the moment you kill yourself.

CL: This sword is causing me much pain.

TP: If I were to tell you to kill yourself because you’re not perfect, what is your response?

CL: No. I will not kill myself! I don’t want the sword. It causes me pain.

TP: Excellent. Keep talking to the sword and those demanding you kill yourself.

CL: I don’t care what others say. I can stand up for myself and I can do so without a sword. The sword wants more blood and I satisfied the sword with my blood. Not anymore.

TP: Are you ready to remove this sword and the pain? If so, imagine yourself grabbing it and pull it out of your stomach.

CL: It’s hard to say good-bye to the sword.

TP: Talk to it.

CL: I refined you. I see myself in you. You were my best friend.

TP: It’s hard to say good-bye to best friends that no longer serve you. I know that is hard. That friend/sword served you at the time, but it doesn’t any longer.

CL: You’ve been attached to my body for a long time. I must let you go. I’m leaving the sacrifice, the beauty, the perfection behind. I’m leaving you behind and moving on.

TP: Now, pull out the sword and breathe.

CL: I feel relieved and happy. (Kim begins to breathe deeply.)

The sword has been in there for so long. It will take time to heal.

TP: Well, you took a bold, big step in beginning the healing process. Do you have any last words for the sword?

CL: Goodbye….sayonara (laughingly in Japanese).

[I laugh too as it’s been an exhausting session/journey that finally showed the light. I’m often asked by others, why bring up the past? Well, because many are living the past, for it has a way of recreating, if parts of it aren’t resolved. Sometimes one must go back to move forward.]

TP: Keep breathing from the stomach and clearing up this obstruction that was affecting your digestion. Tell me more about how you feel.

CL: I feel like a winner now. I feel free. I can go outside. I don’t have to feel judged or hide or feel ashamed.

TP: And notice how when you remove things from your life that cause you immense pain, how much better you feel. What else or who else do you need to let go of to reinforce living pain-free?

CL: My grandmother.


Note: This section was omitted from the article for brevity purposes. However, in summary, Kim makes the connection between her demanding and abusive Korean grandmother she unconsciously attracted, which continued her “you’re not perfect” script. We worked a scene in which she angrily talks back to her while punching pillows to release her judgments and energy. She recognizes that her grandmother doesn’t feel perfect/good enough and has been projecting her unresolved issues upon the entire family. Furthermore, grandmother’s comments (omitted from case-study) during the pre-natal period also influenced the insecurity Kim felt growing up.

She further recognizes her family as willing participants of victimization-based traditions, which connects to their unresolved belief of unworthiness. Kim doesn’t need to accept this way of being and she doesn’t need to forgive (religious connotations reinforcing that the victim should feel guilty) her grandmother. Instead, she can release her energy and move on. And, she definitely doesn’t need to kill her as she fantasized about as a child. She released her pull and doesn’t have to remain attached to Grandma and her victim-victimizer traditions just as she didn’t have to hold onto the sword/best friend. Some relationships and traditions should cease to make room for new ones reinforcing a supportive, healthy way of living in alignment with one’s objectives.

Unfortunately, some of our previous victim-victimizer counterparts won’t choose to heal and expand their consciousness in their current lifetime. One can only wish them well and hope they find their choice of effective help when they are ready. In the meantime, one must reinforce their new script for present living, which sets the stage for future incarnations; A life as a productive, benign observer worthy of respect and love.


TP: How do you feel about the pursuit of perfection, which is impossible vs. the pursuit of excellence, which is healthy and practical?

CL: An obsession with perfection causes pain. I don’t have to perfect the sword or myself. I saw myself in the sword, but not any longer. Everything is beautiful as it is. You don’t have to try and make things beautiful, because by nature they are already beautiful. The world is perfect. NYC is perfect.

TP: I agree. Although NYC can be chaotic, it’s perfect. It serves its purpose and for those that live there as Japan or Korea does for those that live there. At the end of the day, if you don’t feel perfect, nothing seems perfect.

CL: I agree. It’s actually all fine as it is, including me. I’m already somebody.

TP: Say that again.

CL: I’m somebody and my life is valuable.

TP: What else?

CL: I am perfect.

TP: Say that several times.

CL: I am perfect. I am perfect. I am perfect.

TP: How does it feel to finally realize you’re perfect and have always been perfect?

CL: Amazing…free from struggle. I feel unstuck and peaceful. No depression. It’s a big relief.

TP: Great. Stop the struggle. You are no longer a breach birth (stuck) person who has to struggle to survive and thrive. It’s time to live your life to its fullest. You ended the judgmental voices telling you to be ashamed and to ‘kill yourself” or that you aren’t good enough. You are already somebody. You can go outside and work a job that allows you to interact with others.

CL: I feel perfect and that life’s worth living. I feel really happy inside. Thank you.

Conclusion/ Health Relevance

Resolving the “I’m not perfect” unconscious script is critical for promoting well-being. Dr Morris Netherton, founder of PLT with 45 years clinical experience prior to retirement, worked with many cancer and HIV infected clients, whom inevitably revealed: “I’m not perfect.” Netherton states, “When someone is diagnosed with a fatal disease, such as cancer, they often consciously communicate what others want to hear: ‘I’m strong. I can defeat this. I have a lot to learn about cancer.’ Unconsciously, the message is much different. ‘At last I’m going to die. It’s too much for me. No one can blame me now. It’s too hard to try and be perfect. I’m not perfect. This [disease] is my way out.’”

It is believed by some experts that cells in the body can express the “I’m not perfect” command in ways that affect one’s overall health. Every cell in the body contains memory (see Dr. Candace Pert’s and Dr. Ernest Rossi’s research findings on body memory and emotional receptors in Past Life Therapy Theory with Brief Examples by Dr. Morris Netherton). Dr. Pert is recognized for her opiate receptor, endorphin, and peptide research and has written over 250 scientific articles on the role of neuropeptides in the immune system. In Molecules of Emotions (Scribner, New York, 1997) she states, “I believe that repressed emotions are stored in the body — the unconscious mind — via the release of neuropeptide ligands, and [those] memories are held in their receptors.”

Unfortunately, our society encourages the motto, “nobody’s perfect/ I’m not perfect,” which is engrained in many aspects of everyday living. For example, it’s reinforced by advertisers who directly and subliminally target the victims of this mentality by fueling insecurities and perceived imperfections with material substitutes. For many, “You’re not good enough or perfect enough” is also reinforced by parents, educators, and clergy with an implied message such as “You aren’t worthy yet.”

A healthy ego recognizing one’s worth is vital for spiritual growth and wellness. Various life experiences and mistakes may be necessary, but that is the reason we reincarnate—to clear confusion, resolve karma and evolve. Reaching a level where one validates their innate human value is fulfilling emotionally and essential for prolonged health. In contrast, extreme perfectionism or narcissistic behavior is usually indicative of those who feel empty inside. Narcissism is a heightened form of ‘I’m nobody” and “I’m going to imagine that I am somebody by living an illusion of perfection. I’m going to put others down, to make myself feel better and prove I’m somebody.” However, imagining you are somebody and realizing you are already is very different. When one truly realizes they are somebody, they don’t feel a need to prove it. Furthermore, pursuing excellence is healthy and rational while pursuing perfection at all costs is dysfunctional and can be life-threatening.

This article presented an abbreviated case study showing how past-lives, pre-natal/birth, surgeries, and shocking or emotionally charged events can reinforce unresolved patterns. These past experiences hold beliefs and motivations that unconsciously recreate victimization. Past Life Therapy utilizing the Past Life Regression Method of Dr, Brian Weiss offers a unique and effective process for readily accessing past-life traumas and other pivotal experiences. It encourages releasing repressed anger at its source rather than suppressing or managing it through “anger management.” The results occur based on the client’s commitment to the process and the therapist’s skill in eliminating confusion while integrating present and past issues. PLT is one of the few processes that can readily locate and resolve past traumas or life-changing events resurfacing as present-life behavioral and physical problems. With continued therapy, Past Life Therapy creates consciousness and promotes healing.

This case study was kindly approved by Kim for distribution to educate others on the PLT process and to those considering suicide, or know someone contemplating it. When someone hints they may commit suicide, it shouldn’t be discounted as just another way to get attention. It is often a serious and desperate attempt for real attention. Part of them doesn’t want to do it, but they are increasingly bombarded with suicidal thoughts. The unresolved issues cloud their ability to think clearly. They believe the negative thoughts will never stop and their present circumstance may never improve.

During the height of persistent, suicidal thoughts, a person feels stuck and/or already dead. Therefore, suicide seems the logical next step to end pain and the extraordinary effort it takes to function. When in a suicidal state, the person fantasizes that the final act will make them “feel alive” by being “out of body”—and no longer a burden to themselves or others.

Past Life Regression Therapy Method That Gets Results

Fortunately, change is possible for those stuck in an unhealthy reality. The unconscious “I’m not perfect” script can be resolved. Past Life Therapy creates a shift in awareness while eliminating obsessions, addictions, and encouraging well-being. By clearing confusion, and creating consciousness, one feels better, more focused, and purposeful. PLT clients recognize their value as evident in the way they live and relate to those around them. They often change their relationships, career path, and lifestyle when it doesn’t support their new life script. Furthermore, they begin to appreciate and contribute to this world to which they will someday return with a newfound consciousness.

Seppuku(suicide) was a key part of bushido, the code of the samurai warriors; it was used by warriors to avoid falling into enemy hands, and to attenuate shame. Samurai could also be ordered by their daimyo (feudal lords) to commit seppuku. Later, disgraced warriors were sometimes allowed to commit seppuku rather than be executed in the normal manner…Seppuku was commonly performed using a tantō. It could take place with preparation and ritual in the privacy of one's home, or speedily in a quiet corner of a battlefield while one’s comrades kept the enemy at bay.

In the world of the warrior, seppuku was a deed of bravery that was admirable in a samurai who knew he was defeated, disgraced, or mortally wounded. It meant that he could end his days with his transgressions wiped away and with his reputation not merely intact but actually enhanced. The cutting of the abdomen released the samurai’s spirit in the most dramatic fashion, but it is an extremely painful and unpleasant way to die, and sometimes the samurai who was performing the act asked a loyal comrade to cut off his head at the moment of agony. 

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