Anxiety & Male Sexual Issues Reinforced by Past-Life Traumas & Circumcision
CASE STUDY PLR: Anxiety & Male Sexual Issues Reinforced by Past-Life Traumas & Circumcision
A 35 year old, male client named Jim experiences Past Life Therapy for a greater understanding of his emotional and physical problems. Jim states during his initial session that “I’m on a healing journey to eliminate anxiety, depression, and my fear of confrontation.” He also reveals that these challenges are affecting his career and personal relationships, including intimacy issues such as premature ejaculation and recurrent impotency. This case study will examine some of Jim’s therapy visits and clients with similar issues who accredit Rigo de La Cruz and his combination of Past Life Regression and hypnosis exclusively for enabling them to resolve their concerns. All clients mentioned have given written permission to share their story.Jim said he had an elective surgery at 23 years old to correct a severe penile curvature that was making intercourse impossible. Although the procedure was considered a medical success, Jim endured an exceptionally painful recovery reinforced by the surgical staffs' dialogue during his drug-induced unconsciousness, or what can be referred to as “under hypnosis.” During his regression therapy, my client was able to access his unconscious mind to resolve subconscious material affecting his well-being from past-lives, prenatal, surgeries, and his traumatic circumcision.
Jim reports that he is a heterosexual who isn’t sexually active and prefers monogamous relationships when he is active. He also stated that he was afraid to masturbate prior to the penile surgery in fear that he would damage himself further. In addition, he still harbors concerns of harming another person emotionally or physically when he's engaging in intercourse. When asked about a desire to have children, Jim feels conflicted as he likes children, but is worried that they would inherit and struggle with the same issues.
Jim mentioned that he’s afraid to hurt people with his words or intentions even when they’re benign. He often allows himself to be hurt by others rather than speak up when it’s justified; hence, he's been agreeing both unconsciously and consciously to live his life as a victim of other people’s actions and what they may think of him. Other details about Jim that were disclosed in his intake interview include spankings by his father when he was a young boy, recreational drug usage during adolescence, and a general distrust of others.
Some of his physical issues involve bouts with allergies/sinus problems, intermittent pains/inflammation in his chest, and occasional skin problems on his hands, face, or neck when he feels frustrated or angry. At the age of 19, he underwent knee surgery due to an injury from skiing and suffered whip-lash from a car accident in his late 20’s. This has not kept him from becoming an avid sportsman who engages in anxiety-fueled outdoor activities, some of which could be considered dangerous.
I. Excerpts from Jim’s Past Life Therapy sessions.
TP (Therapist: Rigo de La Cruz): Jim, allow your unconscious mind to reveal the source of this suffering you’ve been experiencing since birth. If you could focus your pain, frustration, and anger that you’ve been encountering throughout your life to a part of your body, where would this be isolated?
CL: My penis.
TP: Talk from this region of your body as if it could speak. In other words, give it a voice.
CL: What’s wrong with me? I can’t show myself to anyone.
TP: What’s the strongest emotion or feeling that comes to mind here?
CL: Shame.
TP: Allow yourself to continue talking from the shame isolated in your genitals.
CL: What did I do to deserve this? I’ll never be able to get close to anyone. I’ll never have sex. I’m a freak.
TP: Continue speaking in the first person, which will help ground you in the experience that is bringing about these thoughts and feelings. You have the answers to all of your questions.
CL: Ha, ha. You can’t do this (use this for sex). You shouldn’t be doing this anyway. You’re going to hurt someone.
TP: Jim, notice that you’re speaking in the 3rd person now using the word “you” rather than “I”. These thoughts may be influenced by someone else’s comments that your unconscious mind recorded and is interpreting as your own thoughts and beliefs. Speak the very next thoughts that originate from your genitals and the truth will eventually surface.
CL: This [my penis] is going to hurt someone. We just need to go away and hide. We need to be alone [Jim begins speaking of his penis as if it’s separated or disconnected from his body]. We got better things to do. We got real work to do. This is a waste of time anyway and you aren’t going to find happiness here. Don’t even try. We’re wasting time. We are going in the wrong direction [Jim’s penis was going in the wrong direction; it was tucked under and severely curved downward in shame when erect prior to his present-life surgery]. We’re not going to find it this way.
TP: Give me the first word that comes to mind that will allow you to know what “it”, is?
CL: A forest. I’m looking for it. I’m looking for a place to hide. I’m running. I’m barefoot and running frantically trying to make it to the forest.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: A vague sense of being with someone.
TP: And the very next thoughts that come to mind about this sensation.
CL: We’ll have to get there or we’ll die. They’re after us. I sense we are being chased. Running and stopping. I feel a lot of anxiety, stress, and adrenaline. I’ll do whatever it takes to survive. We’ve got to find it; a way back to my people where it’s safe.
TP: Does what is chasing you ever catch up to you? There is a part of you that knows if it’s yes or no.
CL: Yes. I’ve been shot in the chest.
TP: Allow yourself to speak from your chest. What did the shot say if it could speak?
CL: You’ve been caught. You thought you could run from me. I’ve got you, you son of a bitch. You aren’t going to get away with what you did. You can’t get away from me. How does it feel now? You’re not going to make it home now.
TP: Whose voice is this?
CL: A man looking over my body. I’m feeling a sharp pain that started in my chest and is now spreading…burning. It was an arrow; a poisonous arrow. He’s telling me to die as he laughs. Ha, ha, ha. Die motherfucker, die.
TP: What is your physical position?
CL: I’m lying facing down. I was struck in the back by the arrow. It went through the front. I’m curled over. It’s hard to breathe. I can’t move. I can’t talk. I’m dying. [Jim’s confrontation issues will be reinforced by this unresolved death experience. He rarely confronts/talks with others and his current profession doesn’t require very much speaking.]
TP: After all of your physical organs shut down, allow your soul to drift above your body. Just let me know when you’re out and if you hear any other voices outside of you as your dying.
CL: I feel a release and calm now that I’m dead. I feel peaceful.
TP: The truth is that you’re not dead. You are sitting in my office. If you can feel good re-experiencing your soul leave the body at death, you can surely feel this way while fully in your body. The anxiety, stress, and adrenaline you experienced prior to your death reinforced a survival script that has been letting you know you’re still alive. When you resolve traumatic deaths, you can change this unconscious belief so that calm and peace will reinforce both survival and thriving.
Underneath your fear and anxiety is anger and sadness. Allow yourself to go back into your body and express it. Give back the voices of others that have been reinforcing living as a symptom of dying. In other words, allow yourself to hear your own voice and get to the truth.
CL: [Jim connects the killer to a jealous, Indian tribesman who didn’t want a non-member romantically involved with someone from his tribe.] Get off of me! F*** you! She wanted me. I can do what I want!
TP: Jim, keep talking and moving through this rage. Get the arrow out of your body so that you can release the pain, anxiety, and breathing issues.
CL: [Jim motions as if he was pulling an arrow out of his body. He chooses to reframe the experience and release anger by imagining that he’s doing to the killer what was done to him. He does this while beating his fist against the cushioned armrest of his chair.] I’ll kill you! Take that! How does that feel?
Jim then connects his frantic run in the wrong direction to the time he tried escaping his killer to his deformed penis curved the wrong way.
My penis got me killed. Damn you, you caused this. Desire got me killed. I blame my penis for my death. If I put my penis away, I’d still be alive. I’ll tuck it away. It’s curved downward in this lifetime [wrong direction/facing downward in shame] to keep me from dying this way again. I’m punishing this part of my body.
TP: Jim, keep talking from your penis by giving it a voice. Be aware of any thoughts that are reinforcing this belief that you must be punished.
II. Jim immediately begins regression into another past-life experience.
CL: Ha, ha! How does that feel boy? Got your there, didn’t I? Doesn’t feel very good, does it boy?
Jim begins squirming and embracing a fetal position from the cellular memory of the shocking and excruciating pain inflicted to his groin.
I just got shot in my groin! I can’t take the pain! I just want to die! I feel it in my abdomen too.
TP: What is your greatest fear at this moment?
CL: Living. I can’t live with this. I want to die. He’s over me (saying):
That’s what you get when you f*ck with my family, boy. How does that feel? Now what are you going to do with it? You thought you were going to get away with it? How you feeling now? It looks like we won’t be seeing you around her no more. I’m about to dig a hole for your ass. You’re done, son.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: He’s pointing the gun at my head. He’s going to put me out of my misery. It’s what I want him to do. I can’t handle it. I can’t handle the pain. Oh, oh, oh…it’s so painful.
Jim is keeled over in the chair and then onto the floor as he recalls discomfort.
He finally shoots me in the head. I’m dying.
TP: What are the last thoughts you hear as you’re dying?
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CL: That’s what you get. We won’t be seeing you here again. You’re about to be buried now. You’re done now.
TP: What are the last feelings and beliefs you have at death, which have become part of your survival pattern in the life?
CL: Anxiety, pain; fear of confronting. Distrust of others, misery, and feeling like I just want to be alone and die.
TP: Be at the moment when you are no longer breathing and your lungs, heart, and brain shut down. When all of vital organs have stopped functioning, just let me know.
CL: They’ve stopped. I’m out. Oh, God it feels so good out of there. I feel a cool sensation and light. Thank God I don’t have to live like that [without a penis and in pain]. I don’t have to be afraid and anxious out of the body. I don’t have to confront anyone.
TP: Yes, you do Jim. This isn’t finished. If you can feel this freedom out of the body, you can feel it in the body. Allow yourself to be back in the body before the trauma. You know what happened to you. This experience is unfinished. Allow yourself to confront the man that killed you in this barbaric manner. Anger and sadness are normal emotion that needs to be expressed. Do I have permission to place a large pillow over your body?
CL: Yes.
TP: I’m going to apply some pressure to your groin. [Jim immediately responds allowing him to snap out of victim mode and into a fighting for his survival mode. This is done to encourage him to reframe this trauma and regain his rights as human being through anger as he directs the emotion at its true source.]
CL: Get off of me! You’ve got nothing to do with this old man! [A large pillow is placed over Jim’s groin and then mouth with his permission. After Jim pushed the pillow symbolizing a gun away from his groin, he is instructed to hold the pillow over his mouth to scream his rage as loud as necessary.] I want to shoot him. I see myself doing it. Now, how does that feel?
TP: As you regain control of this situation, continue to speak everything that you’ve been holding in your groin and throughout your body. This trauma has negatively affected multiple aspects of your life.
CL: I don’t have to run from you or anybody [fear of confrontation]. You’re in my business [sexual affairs]. This is my business. I’m telling you how it is.
TP: Keep confronting. Confronting doesn’t have to kill you again; it can save your life.
CL: Mind your own f-ing business! You have no right to shoot me! You’re crazy!
Jim has now re-experienced two lifetimes of being killed for using his penis (having sexual relations). He’s been engaging in multiple forms of self-punishment including sexual dysfunctions and penile deformity, which contribute to his unconsciously motivated survival-script of pain and shame to know he’s alive. Jim begins confronting his penis as if it were a separate entity.
CL: You caused me to be in fear, run from life, and get killed. You created all this trouble and made me do something I shouldn’t have done. You couldn’t just keep yourself if your pants.
TP: Jim, your penis isn’t separate from you. It may seem this way as it was removed from your body with the gun shot. You need to integrate this body part to your entire body. It’s time to stop beating up yourself for something that a crazy person did to you. What’s the truth?
CL: There is nothing inherently wrong with what I did. There is nothing wrong with having sex among consenting partners. Having sex is natural, normal, and a good thing. It’s right to have sex. It’s okay to have sex. I didn’t do anything wrong. Having sex doesn’t have to cause my death, again.
TP: Yes, and you don’t need to keep punishing yourself for something that is normal and natural. It’s also important that you realize where your fear of confrontation has been rooted as you unconsciously learned that initiating sex or confronting others even when they’re wrong can lead to pain and death. Everything the killer said about you during your shocking death has been a form of hypnosis [awareness through de-hypnosis is allowing him to access the truth]. What is the truth about your ability to handle challenges of life and the people in it? What is the truth about distrusting others, isolating yourself, living with anxiety, and feeling bad?
CL: I’ve been scarred of making someone angry even when I’m in the right. This fear is from me being around anger at the time of my death. An angry person killed me. I shouldn’t have to live in isolation or imprisonment. I’ve done nothing wrong to feel badly about myself. I can handle anything that comes my way.
TP: Furthermore, you don’t need anxiety, pain, and fear to know you’re alive. These feelings have been part of your survival-script dictating that pain and suffering, although unpleasant, are necessary because they were the last feelings present before death [calm/peace]. This script can end as you become conscious of it and resolve the past. Your intuition will expand and you will know who you can trust. And as you move out of the role of victim/victimizer you will come into benign observer as someone no longer motivated by the confusion contained within the unconscious mind-body.
III. Jim’s present-life surgery.
TP: Jim, your penile surgery to correct the severe curvature you were born with needs to be addressed. Surgeries using anesthetic create an unconscious environment that can leave the mind vulnerable to any thoughts, spoken and non-verbal, even if they weren’t intended for you. I need you to be at the moment you are on the operating table. What are you aware of?
CL: Sharp objects are around me. Someone just asked me to pick out a radio station. I’m being asked to count backwards from 100. 100, 98, 97, I’m out.
TP: Continue to hear the surgeons examining and speaking around your body.
CL: Okay, let’s see what we can do here. Let’s blow it up [symbolic of the gunshot blow form his past-life trauma] here and see what happens.
After the doctor induces an erection with saline solution, he examines the severity of the curvature.
Yeah, that’s pretty severe, alright. This may be one of the tougher jobs I’ve ever done. This may be a challenge. [These unconsciously recorded comments can reinforce life/activities/recovery will be tough and challenging even after surgery.]
I sense a sharp object going into the dorsal side of my penis.
Okay, we need to cut here, then here, and we need to mark here for cutting that muscle fiber so that it will straighten out.
I wonder if he’s ever had sex before.
I don’t know. That would be painful for somebody [This comment unconsciously reinforces a belief that one inflicts pain on others.] I guess that’s why he’s here. Let’s see what we can do.
Oh, can you imagine not being knocked out for this? This is going to be some painful recovery [Unknowingly, the surgeon or medical staff person has hypnotized their patient into sustaining a prolonged and painful recovery beyond what may be considered normal].
Poor guy, I can’t believe he’s been living like this.
Yeah, who knows what the cause is. It appears to be a birth defect. It’s the only known explanation. [As Jim’s past-life trauma indicated, his deformity stems from multiple, unresolved traumas to the groin.]
Wow, okay. We are going to snip here and cut here. And just sew up here. I think it’s going well so far. Alright, looking good and hopefully it turn out as well as some of my similar operations. Okay, let’s wrap it up. Get a catheter in. I hope he can have sex sometime after this. I feel I did everything I could do.
TP: Jim, be at the moment this operation is finished.
CL: Make sure he has plenty of pain meds. It’s going to be a wild thing to wake up to.
TP: What do you experience as you wake up?
CL: I’m on my own. It feels like I’ve been out for days. It’s quiet. Wow, I don’t feel anything [highly medicated and feeling detached from his lower body]. My penis is wrapped with a catheter coming out. Wow, did that just happen?
TP: Yes, Jim. You re-experienced your surgery and all the thoughts around it that may be influencing your behavior and beliefs today.
CL: Oh God, I felt excruciating, sharp pain during a sleep erection. [Jim is feeling discomfort form the cellular memory of his surgery that is similar to the pain he felt during his past-life death. Although the memory of the pain is present, it’s not unbearable or painful during therapy.]
They held me overnight. They had to make sure I could urinate on my own.
TP: Jim what does an erection result in?
CL: Pain. I feel pain when I have an erection.
TP: And what voices did you record during the surgery that could be reinforcing this even after the recovery period?
CL: That [my penis] would be painful for somebody. My erect penis causes pain to myself and others and ultimately my death [past-life belief].
TP: What’s the truth now?
CL: It’s okay to have sex and it doesn’t have to be difficult [tough or challenging as recorded during the surgery]. It’s okay to have an erection and it doesn’t have to be painful to myself, others, or result in death. My penis can be erect and normal. It doesn’t have to point downward in shame and I can hold my head up.
TP: Excellent. Now, let’s count you back up out of the surgery so that you know this is completely finished. Count back up from where you counted down to when the surgery/hypnotic state began.
CL: 97, 98, 100.
TP: Jim, the surgery is over. Recovery will be easy [as opposed to what he recorded: It’s going to be a wild thing to wake up to. This is going to be some painful recovery].
CL: I feel light right now. I feel light in my body like I did when I left it during the re-experiencing of my past-life deaths. I don’t have to run [from poisonous past-life arrows, gunshots, etc.]. The surgery is over. I can stop being a victimizer to my penis in the form of self-punishment. I can confront people when necessary and live without anxiety.
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It should be noted that Jim’s surgery was physically successful. By reframing and resolving the emotional connections and unconscious dialogue of his past-life traumas and surgery, he can begin the everlasting transition from victim-victimizer to benign observer. Jim’s fear of intimacy, rejection, premature ejaculation issues, and impotency was reinforced by his past-life traumas and painful deaths shortly after sexual relations.
Prior to these past-life revelations, Jim’s therapy treatment also entailed his unconscious, prenatal period and birth experience which is essential to resolve as it often contains false beliefs. The mind records energy interpreted as feelings, thoughts, and beliefs that can confuse the mind into interpreting these incidents as one’s own dialogue. The conscious mind doesn’t activate until the umbilical cord is cut and even then the mind is influenced by others, but not nearly as vulnerable as the unconscious mind which has been recording mother’s thought process throughout pregnancy.
As a result, Jim’s anxiety issues were further influenced by his mother that continued the script of “as long as I’m experiencing anxiety and fear, at least I’m alive.” These familiar feelings were present at death. Hence, Jim unconsciously attracted parents and circumstances that continued this survival pattern that involves suffering as an integral part of life. Past Life Therapy aims to enable clients such as Jim to become conscious of this belief structure at its unconscious roots and resolve the events that are holding it in place.
Some of Jim’s prenatal involved the following internal thoughts by his mother when she learns of her pregnancy: “I don’t know what this will entail. I don’t know what I signed up for. I’m worried that I’ll make a mistake. What if I don’t do it right? I’m worried about its health, and providing for the baby. I’m worried about where we are going to live. I don’t know if I can do this.” This prenatal dialogue, which will be reactivated at birth, was the perfect match for Jim’s unresolved deaths. He’s simply continued being around fear, anxiety and confusion as part of his survival. Jim only knew peace and calm at death prior to his resolved, past-life traumas.
Prior to this awareness, Jim’s survival has been based on questioning his health and ability to do things on his own. He has played out this belief pattern throughout his childhood with both of his parents. Jim mentioned that he would expect his father to get him out of predicaments and finish things for him. He recalls uncontrollable, physical shaking of his body when encountering people that needed to be confronted. Because confrontation has resulted in deaths, Jim has been unconsciously inclined to avoid situations that could result in someone disliking him and ultimately killing him. His body has been reinforcing this belief.
Furthermore, Jim has been struggling with self-esteem and fears that aren’t real, though they feel real. They are contained within the unconscious mind as a belief structure from another time and place. Even his prenatal-birth was being replayed over and over as a false belief that mother’s fears and anxiety is a necessary component to confronting reality. Mother was given drugs to cope with pain of birth, which went into Jim’s body and reinforced drugs as the way to get through things in life. If mother was at ease about this pregnancy with herself, she would have known how to breathe through the birth easily and effortlessly with Jim unconsciously agreeing to help.
Instead, Jim and mother are performing an unconscious dance based in victimization. Jim’s first reaction when he was helped out of mother by the doctor was “Oh no, not again! Oh no, here I go again. I just want to go back and be safe.” This is a logical response having come from a life where he was unsafe, afraid, and brutally murdered. Hence, life is a struggle, and expressing yourself emotionally or sexually will result in a painful death.
IV. Jim’s present-life circumcision, additional clients’ circumcision experiences, and important considerations to examine before circumcising your newborn.
Since pain, anxiety, and struggle are part of Jim’s unconscious, victim-victimizer script, he’s a likely candidate for the medically unnecessary circumcision ritual that is especially prevalent in the United States, Israel and countries with a high percentage of practicing Muslims. A portion of this case study and article is dedicated to anyone perplexed by the decision to circumcise their newborn and debunking common myths.
Although Jim’s unresolved past-life traumas to his penis unconsciously attracted him to further victimization, I don’t believe most people who have had a circumcision have experienced an extreme trauma to their groin prior to death. However, lifetimes of circumcision, rapes, and molestations as victim and/or victimizer can be contributing factors.
Below are details from Jim’s circumcision and additional clients’ experiences during their PLTC de-hypnosis sessions, which allowed them to re-experience their circumcision. Surgical risks, latent sexual, behavioral, and emotional problems are also discussed with various sources, videos, etc. for examination. Please review the following sections carefully and conduct your own research before making an irreversible decision to circumcise.
CL: What’s wrong with me? I can’t show myself to anyone.
TP: What’s the strongest emotion or feeling that comes to mind here?
CL: Shame.
TP: Allow yourself to continue talking from the shame isolated in your genitals.
CL: What did I do to deserve this? I’ll never be able to get close to anyone. I’ll never have sex. I’m a freak.
TP: Continue speaking in the first person, which will help ground you in the experience that is bringing about these thoughts and feelings. You have the answers to all of your questions.
CL: Ha, ha. You can’t do this (use this for sex). You shouldn’t be doing this anyway. You’re going to hurt someone.
TP: Jim, notice that you’re speaking in the 3rd person now using the word “you” rather than “I”. These thoughts may be influenced by someone else’s comments that your unconscious mind recorded and is interpreting as your own thoughts and beliefs. Speak the very next thoughts that originate from your genitals and the truth will eventually surface.
CL: This [my penis] is going to hurt someone. We just need to go away and hide. We need to be alone [Jim begins speaking of his penis as if it’s separated or disconnected from his body]. We got better things to do. We got real work to do. This is a waste of time anyway and you aren’t going to find happiness here. Don’t even try. We’re wasting time. We are going in the wrong direction [Jim’s penis was going in the wrong direction; it was tucked under and severely curved downward in shame when erect prior to his present-life surgery]. We’re not going to find it this way.
TP: Give me the first word that comes to mind that will allow you to know what “it”, is?
CL: A forest. I’m looking for it. I’m looking for a place to hide. I’m running. I’m barefoot and running frantically trying to make it to the forest.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: A vague sense of being with someone.
TP: And the very next thoughts that come to mind about this sensation.
CL: We’ll have to get there or we’ll die. They’re after us. I sense we are being chased. Running and stopping. I feel a lot of anxiety, stress, and adrenaline. I’ll do whatever it takes to survive. We’ve got to find it; a way back to my people where it’s safe.
TP: Does what is chasing you ever catch up to you? There is a part of you that knows if it’s yes or no.
CL: Yes. I’ve been shot in the chest.
TP: Allow yourself to speak from your chest. What did the shot say if it could speak?
CL: You’ve been caught. You thought you could run from me. I’ve got you, you son of a bitch. You aren’t going to get away with what you did. You can’t get away from me. How does it feel now? You’re not going to make it home now.
TP: Whose voice is this?
CL: A man looking over my body. I’m feeling a sharp pain that started in my chest and is now spreading…burning. It was an arrow; a poisonous arrow. He’s telling me to die as he laughs. Ha, ha, ha. Die motherfucker, die.
TP: What is your physical position?
CL: I’m lying facing down. I was struck in the back by the arrow. It went through the front. I’m curled over. It’s hard to breathe. I can’t move. I can’t talk. I’m dying. [Jim’s confrontation issues will be reinforced by this unresolved death experience. He rarely confronts/talks with others and his current profession doesn’t require very much speaking.]
TP: After all of your physical organs shut down, allow your soul to drift above your body. Just let me know when you’re out and if you hear any other voices outside of you as your dying.
CL: I feel a release and calm now that I’m dead. I feel peaceful.
TP: The truth is that you’re not dead. You are sitting in my office. If you can feel good re-experiencing your soul leave the body at death, you can surely feel this way while fully in your body. The anxiety, stress, and adrenaline you experienced prior to your death reinforced a survival script that has been letting you know you’re still alive. When you resolve traumatic deaths, you can change this unconscious belief so that calm and peace will reinforce both survival and thriving.
Underneath your fear and anxiety is anger and sadness. Allow yourself to go back into your body and express it. Give back the voices of others that have been reinforcing living as a symptom of dying. In other words, allow yourself to hear your own voice and get to the truth.
CL: [Jim connects the killer to a jealous, Indian tribesman who didn’t want a non-member romantically involved with someone from his tribe.] Get off of me! F*** you! She wanted me. I can do what I want!
TP: Jim, keep talking and moving through this rage. Get the arrow out of your body so that you can release the pain, anxiety, and breathing issues.
CL: [Jim motions as if he was pulling an arrow out of his body. He chooses to reframe the experience and release anger by imagining that he’s doing to the killer what was done to him. He does this while beating his fist against the cushioned armrest of his chair.] I’ll kill you! Take that! How does that feel?
Jim then connects his frantic run in the wrong direction to the time he tried escaping his killer to his deformed penis curved the wrong way.
My penis got me killed. Damn you, you caused this. Desire got me killed. I blame my penis for my death. If I put my penis away, I’d still be alive. I’ll tuck it away. It’s curved downward in this lifetime [wrong direction/facing downward in shame] to keep me from dying this way again. I’m punishing this part of my body.
TP: Jim, keep talking from your penis by giving it a voice. Be aware of any thoughts that are reinforcing this belief that you must be punished.
II. Jim immediately begins regression into another past-life experience.
CL: Ha, ha! How does that feel boy? Got your there, didn’t I? Doesn’t feel very good, does it boy?
Jim begins squirming and embracing a fetal position from the cellular memory of the shocking and excruciating pain inflicted to his groin.
I just got shot in my groin! I can’t take the pain! I just want to die! I feel it in my abdomen too.
TP: What is your greatest fear at this moment?
CL: Living. I can’t live with this. I want to die. He’s over me (saying):
That’s what you get when you f*ck with my family, boy. How does that feel? Now what are you going to do with it? You thought you were going to get away with it? How you feeling now? It looks like we won’t be seeing you around her no more. I’m about to dig a hole for your ass. You’re done, son.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: He’s pointing the gun at my head. He’s going to put me out of my misery. It’s what I want him to do. I can’t handle it. I can’t handle the pain. Oh, oh, oh…it’s so painful.
Jim is keeled over in the chair and then onto the floor as he recalls discomfort.
He finally shoots me in the head. I’m dying.
TP: What are the last thoughts you hear as you’re dying?
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CL: That’s what you get. We won’t be seeing you here again. You’re about to be buried now. You’re done now.
TP: What are the last feelings and beliefs you have at death, which have become part of your survival pattern in the life?
CL: Anxiety, pain; fear of confronting. Distrust of others, misery, and feeling like I just want to be alone and die.
TP: Be at the moment when you are no longer breathing and your lungs, heart, and brain shut down. When all of vital organs have stopped functioning, just let me know.
CL: They’ve stopped. I’m out. Oh, God it feels so good out of there. I feel a cool sensation and light. Thank God I don’t have to live like that [without a penis and in pain]. I don’t have to be afraid and anxious out of the body. I don’t have to confront anyone.
TP: Yes, you do Jim. This isn’t finished. If you can feel this freedom out of the body, you can feel it in the body. Allow yourself to be back in the body before the trauma. You know what happened to you. This experience is unfinished. Allow yourself to confront the man that killed you in this barbaric manner. Anger and sadness are normal emotion that needs to be expressed. Do I have permission to place a large pillow over your body?
CL: Yes.
TP: I’m going to apply some pressure to your groin. [Jim immediately responds allowing him to snap out of victim mode and into a fighting for his survival mode. This is done to encourage him to reframe this trauma and regain his rights as human being through anger as he directs the emotion at its true source.]
CL: Get off of me! You’ve got nothing to do with this old man! [A large pillow is placed over Jim’s groin and then mouth with his permission. After Jim pushed the pillow symbolizing a gun away from his groin, he is instructed to hold the pillow over his mouth to scream his rage as loud as necessary.] I want to shoot him. I see myself doing it. Now, how does that feel?
TP: As you regain control of this situation, continue to speak everything that you’ve been holding in your groin and throughout your body. This trauma has negatively affected multiple aspects of your life.
CL: I don’t have to run from you or anybody [fear of confrontation]. You’re in my business [sexual affairs]. This is my business. I’m telling you how it is.
TP: Keep confronting. Confronting doesn’t have to kill you again; it can save your life.
CL: Mind your own f-ing business! You have no right to shoot me! You’re crazy!
Jim has now re-experienced two lifetimes of being killed for using his penis (having sexual relations). He’s been engaging in multiple forms of self-punishment including sexual dysfunctions and penile deformity, which contribute to his unconsciously motivated survival-script of pain and shame to know he’s alive. Jim begins confronting his penis as if it were a separate entity.
CL: You caused me to be in fear, run from life, and get killed. You created all this trouble and made me do something I shouldn’t have done. You couldn’t just keep yourself if your pants.
TP: Jim, your penis isn’t separate from you. It may seem this way as it was removed from your body with the gun shot. You need to integrate this body part to your entire body. It’s time to stop beating up yourself for something that a crazy person did to you. What’s the truth?
CL: There is nothing inherently wrong with what I did. There is nothing wrong with having sex among consenting partners. Having sex is natural, normal, and a good thing. It’s right to have sex. It’s okay to have sex. I didn’t do anything wrong. Having sex doesn’t have to cause my death, again.
TP: Yes, and you don’t need to keep punishing yourself for something that is normal and natural. It’s also important that you realize where your fear of confrontation has been rooted as you unconsciously learned that initiating sex or confronting others even when they’re wrong can lead to pain and death. Everything the killer said about you during your shocking death has been a form of hypnosis [awareness through de-hypnosis is allowing him to access the truth]. What is the truth about your ability to handle challenges of life and the people in it? What is the truth about distrusting others, isolating yourself, living with anxiety, and feeling bad?
CL: I’ve been scarred of making someone angry even when I’m in the right. This fear is from me being around anger at the time of my death. An angry person killed me. I shouldn’t have to live in isolation or imprisonment. I’ve done nothing wrong to feel badly about myself. I can handle anything that comes my way.
TP: Furthermore, you don’t need anxiety, pain, and fear to know you’re alive. These feelings have been part of your survival-script dictating that pain and suffering, although unpleasant, are necessary because they were the last feelings present before death [calm/peace]. This script can end as you become conscious of it and resolve the past. Your intuition will expand and you will know who you can trust. And as you move out of the role of victim/victimizer you will come into benign observer as someone no longer motivated by the confusion contained within the unconscious mind-body.
III. Jim’s present-life surgery.
TP: Jim, your penile surgery to correct the severe curvature you were born with needs to be addressed. Surgeries using anesthetic create an unconscious environment that can leave the mind vulnerable to any thoughts, spoken and non-verbal, even if they weren’t intended for you. I need you to be at the moment you are on the operating table. What are you aware of?
CL: Sharp objects are around me. Someone just asked me to pick out a radio station. I’m being asked to count backwards from 100. 100, 98, 97, I’m out.
TP: Continue to hear the surgeons examining and speaking around your body.
CL: Okay, let’s see what we can do here. Let’s blow it up [symbolic of the gunshot blow form his past-life trauma] here and see what happens.
After the doctor induces an erection with saline solution, he examines the severity of the curvature.
Yeah, that’s pretty severe, alright. This may be one of the tougher jobs I’ve ever done. This may be a challenge. [These unconsciously recorded comments can reinforce life/activities/recovery will be tough and challenging even after surgery.]
I sense a sharp object going into the dorsal side of my penis.
Okay, we need to cut here, then here, and we need to mark here for cutting that muscle fiber so that it will straighten out.
I wonder if he’s ever had sex before.
I don’t know. That would be painful for somebody [This comment unconsciously reinforces a belief that one inflicts pain on others.] I guess that’s why he’s here. Let’s see what we can do.
Oh, can you imagine not being knocked out for this? This is going to be some painful recovery [Unknowingly, the surgeon or medical staff person has hypnotized their patient into sustaining a prolonged and painful recovery beyond what may be considered normal].
Poor guy, I can’t believe he’s been living like this.
Yeah, who knows what the cause is. It appears to be a birth defect. It’s the only known explanation. [As Jim’s past-life trauma indicated, his deformity stems from multiple, unresolved traumas to the groin.]
Wow, okay. We are going to snip here and cut here. And just sew up here. I think it’s going well so far. Alright, looking good and hopefully it turn out as well as some of my similar operations. Okay, let’s wrap it up. Get a catheter in. I hope he can have sex sometime after this. I feel I did everything I could do.
TP: Jim, be at the moment this operation is finished.
CL: Make sure he has plenty of pain meds. It’s going to be a wild thing to wake up to.
TP: What do you experience as you wake up?
CL: I’m on my own. It feels like I’ve been out for days. It’s quiet. Wow, I don’t feel anything [highly medicated and feeling detached from his lower body]. My penis is wrapped with a catheter coming out. Wow, did that just happen?
TP: Yes, Jim. You re-experienced your surgery and all the thoughts around it that may be influencing your behavior and beliefs today.
CL: Oh God, I felt excruciating, sharp pain during a sleep erection. [Jim is feeling discomfort form the cellular memory of his surgery that is similar to the pain he felt during his past-life death. Although the memory of the pain is present, it’s not unbearable or painful during therapy.]
They held me overnight. They had to make sure I could urinate on my own.
TP: Jim what does an erection result in?
CL: Pain. I feel pain when I have an erection.
TP: And what voices did you record during the surgery that could be reinforcing this even after the recovery period?
CL: That [my penis] would be painful for somebody. My erect penis causes pain to myself and others and ultimately my death [past-life belief].
TP: What’s the truth now?
CL: It’s okay to have sex and it doesn’t have to be difficult [tough or challenging as recorded during the surgery]. It’s okay to have an erection and it doesn’t have to be painful to myself, others, or result in death. My penis can be erect and normal. It doesn’t have to point downward in shame and I can hold my head up.
TP: Excellent. Now, let’s count you back up out of the surgery so that you know this is completely finished. Count back up from where you counted down to when the surgery/hypnotic state began.
CL: 97, 98, 100.
TP: Jim, the surgery is over. Recovery will be easy [as opposed to what he recorded: It’s going to be a wild thing to wake up to. This is going to be some painful recovery].
CL: I feel light right now. I feel light in my body like I did when I left it during the re-experiencing of my past-life deaths. I don’t have to run [from poisonous past-life arrows, gunshots, etc.]. The surgery is over. I can stop being a victimizer to my penis in the form of self-punishment. I can confront people when necessary and live without anxiety.
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It should be noted that Jim’s surgery was physically successful. By reframing and resolving the emotional connections and unconscious dialogue of his past-life traumas and surgery, he can begin the everlasting transition from victim-victimizer to benign observer. Jim’s fear of intimacy, rejection, premature ejaculation issues, and impotency was reinforced by his past-life traumas and painful deaths shortly after sexual relations.
Prior to these past-life revelations, Jim’s therapy treatment also entailed his unconscious, prenatal period and birth experience which is essential to resolve as it often contains false beliefs. The mind records energy interpreted as feelings, thoughts, and beliefs that can confuse the mind into interpreting these incidents as one’s own dialogue. The conscious mind doesn’t activate until the umbilical cord is cut and even then the mind is influenced by others, but not nearly as vulnerable as the unconscious mind which has been recording mother’s thought process throughout pregnancy.
As a result, Jim’s anxiety issues were further influenced by his mother that continued the script of “as long as I’m experiencing anxiety and fear, at least I’m alive.” These familiar feelings were present at death. Hence, Jim unconsciously attracted parents and circumstances that continued this survival pattern that involves suffering as an integral part of life. Past Life Therapy aims to enable clients such as Jim to become conscious of this belief structure at its unconscious roots and resolve the events that are holding it in place.
Some of Jim’s prenatal involved the following internal thoughts by his mother when she learns of her pregnancy: “I don’t know what this will entail. I don’t know what I signed up for. I’m worried that I’ll make a mistake. What if I don’t do it right? I’m worried about its health, and providing for the baby. I’m worried about where we are going to live. I don’t know if I can do this.” This prenatal dialogue, which will be reactivated at birth, was the perfect match for Jim’s unresolved deaths. He’s simply continued being around fear, anxiety and confusion as part of his survival. Jim only knew peace and calm at death prior to his resolved, past-life traumas.
Prior to this awareness, Jim’s survival has been based on questioning his health and ability to do things on his own. He has played out this belief pattern throughout his childhood with both of his parents. Jim mentioned that he would expect his father to get him out of predicaments and finish things for him. He recalls uncontrollable, physical shaking of his body when encountering people that needed to be confronted. Because confrontation has resulted in deaths, Jim has been unconsciously inclined to avoid situations that could result in someone disliking him and ultimately killing him. His body has been reinforcing this belief.
Furthermore, Jim has been struggling with self-esteem and fears that aren’t real, though they feel real. They are contained within the unconscious mind as a belief structure from another time and place. Even his prenatal-birth was being replayed over and over as a false belief that mother’s fears and anxiety is a necessary component to confronting reality. Mother was given drugs to cope with pain of birth, which went into Jim’s body and reinforced drugs as the way to get through things in life. If mother was at ease about this pregnancy with herself, she would have known how to breathe through the birth easily and effortlessly with Jim unconsciously agreeing to help.
Instead, Jim and mother are performing an unconscious dance based in victimization. Jim’s first reaction when he was helped out of mother by the doctor was “Oh no, not again! Oh no, here I go again. I just want to go back and be safe.” This is a logical response having come from a life where he was unsafe, afraid, and brutally murdered. Hence, life is a struggle, and expressing yourself emotionally or sexually will result in a painful death.
IV. Jim’s present-life circumcision, additional clients’ circumcision experiences, and important considerations to examine before circumcising your newborn.
Since pain, anxiety, and struggle are part of Jim’s unconscious, victim-victimizer script, he’s a likely candidate for the medically unnecessary circumcision ritual that is especially prevalent in the United States, Israel and countries with a high percentage of practicing Muslims. A portion of this case study and article is dedicated to anyone perplexed by the decision to circumcise their newborn and debunking common myths.
Although Jim’s unresolved past-life traumas to his penis unconsciously attracted him to further victimization, I don’t believe most people who have had a circumcision have experienced an extreme trauma to their groin prior to death. However, lifetimes of circumcision, rapes, and molestations as victim and/or victimizer can be contributing factors.
Below are details from Jim’s circumcision and additional clients’ experiences during their PLTC de-hypnosis sessions, which allowed them to re-experience their circumcision. Surgical risks, latent sexual, behavioral, and emotional problems are also discussed with various sources, videos, etc. for examination. Please review the following sections carefully and conduct your own research before making an irreversible decision to circumcise.
A. Jim’s recall and emotional resolution of his circumcision.
CL: We’re just going to take him now and do the circumcision. We’ll have him back for you soon.
TP: Allow yourself to know your physical position after the doctor takes you. This will allow you to ground yourself in this experience rather than just observing/describing it.
CL: I’m lying on my back in a little holding crib-like case. I feel the coldness of it. I’m wiggling back and forth, not knowing what’s going on. There is a doctor and nurse present.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: The doctor’s hands are up; he’s holding a sharp object. His hands are on my legs and then on my penis. He’s holding it. Here comes the sharp, scalpel-like thing. He says, “Just hold him like that; Okay, I just have to cut the skin right here.”
TP: What do you feel?
CL: Ouch! Ugh! Ouch! I feel immense pain. [Jim is visibly disturbed as he moves his body in a hunched over position in the therapy chair.] It’s on the left side of my penis; the scalpel is cutting through the skin. Oh, Ouch! This hurts so much.
TP: Come to the moment this finishes; just know what is said or done to end this experience.
CL: The doctor says, “It will be okay buddy, I promise; just a routine procedure.” He then takes the foreskin away. And then says, “Good boy, that a boy; you’re a tough guy. You’ll be alright.”
TP: Notice how this man is defining a good boy/future man.
CL: To be tough and feel pain.
TP: What is he reinforcing by this circumcision?
CL: Life is painful. We have to suffer. You have to be tough.
TP: And how do you feel about this and what he did?
CL: Angry. [Circumcision can reinforce latent rage, distrust of others, anxiety, etc.]
TP: What would you like to do with your hand if you could? Is this really alright as the doctor says?
CL: No, it’s not okay! I’d push him away. Get off of me! Get off! Just get off of me! Why are you doing that? What in the hell is this for? Leave me alone! Where is my Mom?
TP: Jim, continue to see yourself pushing him away and actually move your hands and kick your feet as you defend yourself and reclaim your right to a fully intact body. Breathe. This is over. You don’t have to re-experience this again if you feel this is resolved and finished.
CL: What did I do to deserve this? Oh my God, that hurt. I wish I hadn’t done that.
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I asked Jim to define “that.” This is when Jim begins the recollection of the past-life gunshot wound to his groin that was mentioned earlier in this case study. Jim associated his circumcision with the past-life pain in his genitals and in retrospect wishes that he didn’t sleep with “that” girl, or use “that thing” (his penis), as it got him mercilessly killed. Jim’s circumcision reinforced pain and confusion experienced at the time of his death and is focused again in the same area of his body as the doctor reactivated his unresolved, past-life trauma.
Jim also mentioned that he wished that the doctor and assisting nurse wouldn’t have performed the circumcision. He then acknowledged that he wasn’t responsible for the circumcision; the ones who agreed to perform the surgery, including his parents who condoned it are accountable. However, his unresolved victim mindset at birth also unconsciously reinforced this procedure. His first reaction to recalling the circumcision during his de-hypnosis session was that it was his fault and that somehow he deserved this torture. This is stemming from his past-life confusion, which is finally surfacing for resolution.
B. Additional examples of present-life circumcision and its effects.
“I feel a sharp object on my genitals. I feel sadness, pain, and tension in this area. I feel shame [which can reinforce sexual guilt, erectile dysfunction, premature ejaculation, etc.]. I’m screaming with pain. I’m feeling as if there is something wrong with me.”
When asked for the truth he replies, “There is something wrong with doctors if they assume there is something wrong with me and this most sensitive area. It’s as if I don’t own this part of my body and people can do whatever they want with it. I immediately distrust doctors and strangers as of this moment. I feel life is about escaping stress, pain and discomfort imposed by others.”
“I’m sensing that my mother wanted this done to me (she gave up my older brother for adoption) and now she’s going to do right this time by doing what others expect of her. All of these people assume I’m not perfect or insufficient. I feel less than. I feel that I’m a victimized person on my first day of life.” He then acknowledges feelings of shame and anger as a result of the surgery.
There are clients who notice the confusing messages from their procedure, such as “This won’t hurt a bit,” or, “Look at that little thing," (reinforcing insecurity about one's penis size or sexual abilities later in life) or, “This will make you a man.” Then there are others who conclude that circumcision has unconsciously implied, "It's going to be a painful life, just get used to it." Circumcision does cause harm that can reinforce a culture of angry, confused men that either express rage onto others or repress their feelings, which can manifest into emotional and physical problems throughout their lifetimes until resolved.
C. Important considerations and potentially life-long ramifications of circumcision.
CL: We’re just going to take him now and do the circumcision. We’ll have him back for you soon.
TP: Allow yourself to know your physical position after the doctor takes you. This will allow you to ground yourself in this experience rather than just observing/describing it.
CL: I’m lying on my back in a little holding crib-like case. I feel the coldness of it. I’m wiggling back and forth, not knowing what’s going on. There is a doctor and nurse present.
TP: What are you aware of next?
CL: The doctor’s hands are up; he’s holding a sharp object. His hands are on my legs and then on my penis. He’s holding it. Here comes the sharp, scalpel-like thing. He says, “Just hold him like that; Okay, I just have to cut the skin right here.”
TP: What do you feel?
CL: Ouch! Ugh! Ouch! I feel immense pain. [Jim is visibly disturbed as he moves his body in a hunched over position in the therapy chair.] It’s on the left side of my penis; the scalpel is cutting through the skin. Oh, Ouch! This hurts so much.
TP: Come to the moment this finishes; just know what is said or done to end this experience.
CL: The doctor says, “It will be okay buddy, I promise; just a routine procedure.” He then takes the foreskin away. And then says, “Good boy, that a boy; you’re a tough guy. You’ll be alright.”
TP: Notice how this man is defining a good boy/future man.
CL: To be tough and feel pain.
TP: What is he reinforcing by this circumcision?
CL: Life is painful. We have to suffer. You have to be tough.
TP: And how do you feel about this and what he did?
CL: Angry. [Circumcision can reinforce latent rage, distrust of others, anxiety, etc.]
TP: What would you like to do with your hand if you could? Is this really alright as the doctor says?
CL: No, it’s not okay! I’d push him away. Get off of me! Get off! Just get off of me! Why are you doing that? What in the hell is this for? Leave me alone! Where is my Mom?
TP: Jim, continue to see yourself pushing him away and actually move your hands and kick your feet as you defend yourself and reclaim your right to a fully intact body. Breathe. This is over. You don’t have to re-experience this again if you feel this is resolved and finished.
CL: What did I do to deserve this? Oh my God, that hurt. I wish I hadn’t done that.
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I asked Jim to define “that.” This is when Jim begins the recollection of the past-life gunshot wound to his groin that was mentioned earlier in this case study. Jim associated his circumcision with the past-life pain in his genitals and in retrospect wishes that he didn’t sleep with “that” girl, or use “that thing” (his penis), as it got him mercilessly killed. Jim’s circumcision reinforced pain and confusion experienced at the time of his death and is focused again in the same area of his body as the doctor reactivated his unresolved, past-life trauma.
Jim also mentioned that he wished that the doctor and assisting nurse wouldn’t have performed the circumcision. He then acknowledged that he wasn’t responsible for the circumcision; the ones who agreed to perform the surgery, including his parents who condoned it are accountable. However, his unresolved victim mindset at birth also unconsciously reinforced this procedure. His first reaction to recalling the circumcision during his de-hypnosis session was that it was his fault and that somehow he deserved this torture. This is stemming from his past-life confusion, which is finally surfacing for resolution.
B. Additional examples of present-life circumcision and its effects.
“I feel a sharp object on my genitals. I feel sadness, pain, and tension in this area. I feel shame [which can reinforce sexual guilt, erectile dysfunction, premature ejaculation, etc.]. I’m screaming with pain. I’m feeling as if there is something wrong with me.”
When asked for the truth he replies, “There is something wrong with doctors if they assume there is something wrong with me and this most sensitive area. It’s as if I don’t own this part of my body and people can do whatever they want with it. I immediately distrust doctors and strangers as of this moment. I feel life is about escaping stress, pain and discomfort imposed by others.”
“I’m sensing that my mother wanted this done to me (she gave up my older brother for adoption) and now she’s going to do right this time by doing what others expect of her. All of these people assume I’m not perfect or insufficient. I feel less than. I feel that I’m a victimized person on my first day of life.” He then acknowledges feelings of shame and anger as a result of the surgery.
There are clients who notice the confusing messages from their procedure, such as “This won’t hurt a bit,” or, “Look at that little thing," (reinforcing insecurity about one's penis size or sexual abilities later in life) or, “This will make you a man.” Then there are others who conclude that circumcision has unconsciously implied, "It's going to be a painful life, just get used to it." Circumcision does cause harm that can reinforce a culture of angry, confused men that either express rage onto others or repress their feelings, which can manifest into emotional and physical problems throughout their lifetimes until resolved.
C. Important considerations and potentially life-long ramifications of circumcision.
| Excerpts from Proposed Michigan House Bill 4707, Pediatric Pain Management
"The legislature recognizes...that it has been scientifically proven that a human fetus feels pain and that pre-term infants and full-term infants respond to pain and have memory of pain...A physican shall not peform a surgical procedure or other painful procedure, including, but not limited to, circumcision, on a patient who is a pre-term infant, full-term infant, child, or adolescent and who is paralyzed by a chemcial agent or is physically restrained, unless the patient is anesthetized...The physician also shall inform the parent or guardian about the advantages, disadvantages, and risks of each method of pain and symptom management...Failure to provide appropriate and adequate control of pain in those patients amounts to substandard and unethical medical practice."
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It’s estimated that 60% of boys born in the U.S.A. are circumcised for religious, aesthetic, or traditional reasons, which are considered medically unnecessary by many doctors and organizations such as The American Academy of Pediatrics (Note: As of Aug. 27, 2012, their views are leaning towards pro-circumcision). Questions that you may want to ask yourself if you’re thinking about circumcising your child: What are my reasons for circumcising my newborn? Is it due to societal or religious expectations? Is there an assumption that circumcising boys is “natural” or expected? If so, could this belief stem from a misinformed parent or partner who has instilled in your mind that circumcision is normal and beneficial?
Are you uneasy about explaining to your present or future child how to properly clean his genitals? Are you uncomfortable discussing the topic in general? If the answers to any of these questions are yes, is the decision to circumcise more about your own unresolved issues?
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